Back in 1995 it was the Talking Heads song "Stop Making Sense." We were living at a 3 br townhome in Germantown, Maryland, outside of D.C. At the time i wrote, "i see this place as from the sky, mapped out across the landscape like an integrated circuit. We were called here..." My life had … Continue reading Sometimes things come together
Immanence
Subtitled Very Important Post Problem on the smoking porch continuing to be resolved alongside my OCD, and the DO, DO NOT voices with inception when I was refusing Zyprexa yet taking Topamax, the Topamax I am taking again now. I remember saying to myself on the psych ward, 1, i can't die for my cat … Continue reading Immanence
Watershed
So im sitting here and i prayed and i sat diwn in my mind with the pastor who closed tbe door on me and my talk of sexual abuse. And God showed me, yes. You will have to acceot this evl from me. And i do get words like this from him at times. And … Continue reading Watershed
Nasty; 3
I am noone. I am nowhere. Just another sinner. The good thing about me is that i love my son and Satan and my mother interfered with that today. So its back to praying for the intervention of King Solomon the Wise. I have this.
Nasty; 2
Yes SATAN is NASTY. Last time i exoerienced an attack like this (see my last post) i couldnt accept that it was real because it was so cruel. Now i know that this is exactly what Satan does. He attacked like this a year and a half ago when i was an inpatienr on … Continue reading Nasty; 2
Nasty
Today, SATAN IS RRAL. Its been so long id firgotten. It started at the orthopedic office where i went for a check on my little.finger, which i broke when i went to the city nearby here wbere i received services 32 years agi when my family first moved here. I fell on the payment. All … Continue reading Nasty
Resolved
Resolved and Retroactive; Miss S. of my last post is banned, locked out: where there is weeping and gnashing of teerh. She didn't know how to conduct herself at Hutton and she didn't know how to conduct herself afterward. Just another bumbling atheist. I waa afraid of her. She was planning to 'write the great … Continue reading Resolved
It is well
I made a junk edit on my 2nd book "Evety Cloud... " which is bringing fantasric change and insight but i cant bring myself to trust it. I cut out a swathe of type that had been written online, a bunch of seemingly endless Authors Notes and Introductions: and i dont have a hard copy! … Continue reading It is well
She knows who she is and what she did
This post is about a self-identified "Stanford faculty brat." She was so boring and negative i don't even want to write this post. For her Hutton was an obligation. What a loss. I was struggling with the same feelings for heartbreaking reasons. For me that was a passion and a problem. For her it was … Continue reading She knows who she is and what she did
