Freedom

God just released me from the sexual relationship with my ex husband, which was a question of ungodly and painful contortions.  It is a relief.  God showed me His tears.  I’m not sure what He means.  I see ny husband in my minds eye, a good looking fellow with a good sense of humor.  How did we get up to this nonsense?  Its a dead loss.  Except for our son.  There’s nothing left for us.  God has told me He would bring us back together but i know that for Alex it was all about the sex.  A woman of my age cant be fooling around like that.

What a relief.  I feel like I’ve been bound hand and foot for this sex life all these 27 years–we are only now disentangling although the divorce was finalized 5 1/2 years ago.

What a relief.  Maybe now we will be able to look at the money question and the relational questions.

Hallelujah.  Amen.  I feel human again.

I see where this comes from the growing freedom frfrom im the sexualization in my relationship with my father.  I’ve been challenging him on it for about 4 or 5 months now, and he’s having a hard time hiding from it any more.  He’s about to cave.  I see that ive always had a nan in my life continously since he tried to touch me when i was 17.

Thank God Almighty!  Free at last!

800 p.m.  Jackass on the smoking porch Breached my borders.  This is no game.  Keep your smut off of me.

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