This evening calls for two posts. Oh what a great comeback from desperate directions. Over the last week i came to experience the meaning of the expression, “up a shit creek without a paddle.” I wondered, whats a person’s rescue from that situation? Well, here is one; evidently a person has the necessary parts built into the situation. Boy i had a couple of scary nights.
There was an epidemic of flies that were coming in from outdoors when i left the doors open so the cats could go out. I woke up early to feed them a couple of mornings ago and there was a terrifying, loud buzzing throughout the downstairs of this “cottage” part of the house that i stay in. Ive been slowly eliminating them and worrying about the cats taking in the poison. They seem to be okay now. They were a little sick the first day and then i got a better, cat-friendly spray.
Now i am trying to be better to them because i realized how badly my OCD has been stressing them as i go hrough all these moments that i present here; they were actually “shouting” at me when i was laying in the other morning. I wasnt sure what they wanted but their loud, deliberate meows sounded like shouts trying to get attention. I figured afterwards it was probably the flies that were getting to them so that has been addressed; there has certainly been a lot of stress and tension. They trounce on me also, if i lay in in the morning, stamping hard on me to rregister their frustration. I have been spending a lot of time on the computer working on my book and they dont understand. And i pray rhe rosary and they dont understand.
I just have to pray to Saint Francis to know how to take care of them. I love them but i dont know how to address their need, they were left alone in here for a year before i came here and after 3 months the initial eccitement has worn off and they have to adjust to my personality which is so different from my mothers or my sons. And i do want to avoid going overboard over them rhe way i have done about pets in the past.
Well as i write i sense that they (Travis and Tanner) appreciate rhe attention and that my parents are grounded by it too. A little bit of the basics. We’re all mentally interconnected here Well my father said i always get tired of a situation after 3 months and actually, if she hadnt triggered a blow up that led me to tell her i was looking for another place to live we would have slipped into month 4 without a hitch. My housing search is fir 1 to 2 YEARS from now. Tberes a fight going on about something else that i must have blogged about 6 or 8 weeks ago, maybe longer, which is too sickening to talk about, so i talked about the cats instead.
GOD’S IN CHARGE.
