Talked to my pstchiatrist about ny blessing sexual issues today. He is physically handicapped also so it will be interesting to see how this plays out, i am hoping for a blessing, a warm understanding. Anything else would be si cruel.
I also told him of my deepening faith and he approached this withourmr a doubt. Living with a father like mine–a hedonist, blaspheming with every breath–this is always ao welcome.
I saw Sister M. on Monday. That appointment was also hard to get to: a rental car and flash floods. I have one more appointment tomorrow morning and then nothing until church on Sunday, which i DO NOT want to miss. I an looking forward to it.
I had rhe most wonderful time in Minday after seeing Sisrer M. The Lord showed me the special covenant he had given me with this slow driving which i do to be SAFE. People get mad at me but i used to be a terrible driver so now i an careful to drive the linit or 5 miles under; where possible, i take my time pulling out from a light, that sort if thing. If someone is tailgating me in one of those long 40 mph stretches ill do 45. But otherwise i wont speed.
The Lord does not offer me special protection from a fatal accident, he warned me of this; where before, my sin and i seened record safe from harm; he walked away from 5 totaled vehicles withour a scratch and my recird is bizarre. But he guides me through extraordinary paces, without a sagety net now, which us as it should be
So thats where the LORD found me, out on the open road. When i met my ex i was drivig the country roads in my little Dodge Colt, my only solace. My husband had learned to drive on rhe German AutoBahn.
Today i find God in church! And its a beautuful thing.