My mother is an uneducated woman surrounded by HIGHLY educated, even POWERFUL women through her marriage to my father and for other reasons that i have to admit i dont really understand. She is endearing. Surely that isnt enough to let her make a hatchet job out of everyrhing i ever tried to do with my life. I see where she is a pet among these women. and i am a whipping post; and that this has played out since i was in college.
They see me disrespecting her and say that it is because I am a spoiled brat. I’d like to see her dissing their education. They lend a one time dissing of me for her sake, over and over and over. Obviously there is a reason for my behaviour. The truth is deep. I was kneed in the crotch by my brother and had a subtle but overwhelming disability. One that didn’t make her look good. “Get dressed or I’ll dress you myself” she said when I was so depressed and ill I couldn’t move. She had a difficult situation, my father “can barely keep his hands off of me.” I handled it badly.
Meanwhile i have a child of my own now. That’s a MIRACLE! It reminds me of the song by Janis Joplin (???) “Dear Abby.”
“Dear Abby, Dear Abby, you won’t believe this/
My stomach makes noises whenever I kiss…/…”
And I know that nothing she does can really harm me. The Lord gives me signs and sacraments.
Just like when YOU had kids MOM. The LORD made a way for you. Now He is making a way for me. So back down.
I think that it is because of the ectopic pregnancy that she does things that are so upsetting
