I will start a third Novena tomorrow after the second one that finishes tonight, I have decided.
I heard a voice saying “No,” that she had died because of my last Novena but this says to me that people are living off my suffering.
A famous philosopher who attended both my prep school and my university posited that it is not morally permissible to force a person to suffer for the benefit of others, no matter how good for others it is, not without the consent of the person involved.
And this is what is happening to me. The status Quo is that I run around in circles for the benefit of others and once it gets started I cant stop it. This is happening in all kinds of areas of my life and a lot of it is really painful. Ive been down for so long that it is hard to conceive of how it could be made right but it has to happen. That’s all I need to know. It has to happen.
That was Sunday; now it is Tuesday. I did not pray a third Novena and I am finding 2 is enough! Don’t take praying a Novena to St. Jude lightly! See my next post for a dramatic revelation that came out of it that is going to put an end to the hamster wheel trip Ive been on and set me free!