At The State Hospital

I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends.

Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and raping them in their minds–including me–was a Wellesley College graduate. Anyone who knows anything about the Ivy League knows that Wellesley College is a sister College to Harvard Radcliffe where I got my degree. And also to Smith College, another major Massachusetts womens college, where my sister attended. At Harvard they used to say, “Smith to bed, Welkesley to wed.” That was a long time ago. I heard it from the gynecologist that my mother sent me to to get a diaphragm when I brought a Kent School boy back to the house in Summit, NJ, after graduation and had him sleeping with me; after the now acknowledged New Years, ’79 “breast-touching” by my father.

The gynecologist knew that I was on my way to Harvard!

So, I completely forgot that.

Then, after the first time that I went to the state hospital and had this skirmish with David, when I got out i was giving her a ride to the barn and I told her to go to Smith College. With nothing whatsoever in my mind of that saying about Smith women. In fact, at the time that I was at Harvard they were saying that expression about a different womens college and I cant believe it but I actually have the sense not to quote the name of it here!!!.

I DONT EVEN KNOW MYSELF WHY I DID THAT!!! why I told her to go to Smith.

The point of it was that I DIDNT HAVE THAT IN MY MIND ABOUT MY SISTER AND SMITH COLLEGE AND HARVARD MEN! That was something Satanic coming from the state hospital! And my father cant blame me for it because he put me there!

My sister’s name WAS THE SAME AS THAT OF HIS GIRLFRIEND

AND, AS WITH MY EX HUSBAND friend Mark at the State hospital, there was also a satanic involvement pre-existing in this regard with my sister.

She was born on Friday 13th and had a complex about being the anti-Christ.

She VISITED ME AT THE STATE HOSPITAL AND DAVID SAW HER!!! JUST ONCE. That was all it took.

And, she was born after my mother’s ectopic pregnancy, a horrible family secret that had affected all of us all these years and through which Satan has been present all along and this puts the whole situation back on MY PLATE AS NEEDS BE FOR ME TO HAVE MY OWN CONTROL BACK OVER MY OWN LIFE.

The point of all this is that it all worked through WSH David’s girlfriend being a Wellesley woman and that that was within HIS PARAMETERS for that to be the case.

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