A Letter to Society

About where I've been and where I'm going. Picking up a huge puzzle piece this evening. About a summer evening in Reading, PA long, long ago. Two men on motorcycles; the Pagoda. Two sensual movies at the local theatre. A hot dark night. I lost my heart to a man there; never to return. So, … Continue reading A Letter to Society →

Home!

Finally understood that the disappearing nytimes Opinion posts were about that I shouldn't have been going back there. I sort of knew this. I was able to write out my book that way, but it was done. I missed WordPress blogging! That has been home since a bout 2009, when I first started blogging in … Continue reading Home! →

screwed

With the press of a spacebar last night, my entire, long email to the nytimes disappeared. They are pretending that it is about protecting Trump, who is speaking tonight, because I compared myself to him. My Advocate Presidency. I said that he desperately wanted to be removed--at one point--just as I did as the undergraduate … Continue reading screwed →

Race matters (2)

In college, I was dissociated from race matters. I was a very ignorant person. Because of my own, personal matters. I should not have been at an IV League University. A decade and a half later, I was renting a townhouse in Germantown, MD, a mixed race, "bedroom community" of DC; with my ex and … Continue reading Race matters (2) →

Coffee

I mentioned in my last post about driving the PA roadways, back in the 80's in my Dodge Colt, drinking 10 large coffees and smoking "endless cigarettes." Well, there was a history to that. I remember drinking a couple of cups of coffee at the senior coffee house at boarding school, and totally freaking out … Continue reading Coffee →

Re the cat Sasha

My father thinks that I need to know (for myself) what he thinks he needs to know to be a man. Towards this end, he is constantly punishing, teasing and twisting me. My sister, on the other hand, is perfect, sweet, a delight. They have a little romance. He likes to make that comparison. She … Continue reading Re the cat Sasha →

Work in Progress

So, it is SICKENING, what I have to write about today. I have to go further back, before my child, before the lies and deception surrounding the marriage, before my child; when i was a REALLY, REALLY HORRIBLE PERSON. I drove the PA roadways for hours a day, drinking 10 large coffees, spilling coffee on … Continue reading Work in Progress →

THIS JUST IN

OMG First of all, the cat, Sasha, i didn't explain to anybody what happened with the euthanasia because i didn't realize how important it was to get it said. Something untoward happened at the last munute on the way to the vet, an urgent care clinic at an unfamiliar location. I forgot to indicate as … Continue reading THIS JUST IN →

Talking

Talked to an old friend last night. I haven't talked in years; ever. Dont know who to trust. My exhusband was one of the few NOT wordless people who was able to communicate with me. His French/German influenced Canadian with my Americanized British: he had learned as a youth in Europe how to be understood … Continue reading Talking →

Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm

This post was just updated: First of all, its about the rape at the beach when i was 13. When i was living here in my 20s, they (my parents) (world's worst friends to children) said to me, obliquely, "It happened when you were 13." A few years later--i was still living here-- i mentioned … Continue reading Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm →