This has been my role for so long. Life drives you to this. I had the coronavirus mask; and the sunglasses to cover my poor broken eyes (shock; eyelashes all gone.) And then one day I put on the hospital robes, one front to back, the other back to front; and it triggered my old … Continue reading Prophet of the psych ward; AGAIN
Author: abbyhillonline
studying to be a Catholic Christian
mother, ex-wife, sister, friend
Prophets
It's about abortion. "I am the king of the world." "My name is David SON, S-U-N of GOD." I was constantly going to writing a novel called "Voices," I just liked the sound of that title. "My name is power." Uh hmm. (This is a patient from the state hospital speaking through me over the … Continue reading Prophets
MO
Its the newer anti psychotic med that has been causing all this for me. What a horrible night. Left at 7 a.m. without even taking my meds. Drove around all day for 5 hours. Didn't even feed the poor cats. So, I was thinking, maybe I just wont even go back. And, I realized I … Continue reading MO
The Biggest Lie
I just uncovered the biggest lie of my whole life and it was put there by Satan. Oh my! I made a suicide attempt when I had just turned 22. I was such a child; I didnt know how to do it. So, i tried to get pills. I went to my mother's doctor and … Continue reading The Biggest Lie
Wondering
As i sift through my past in light of this new information--that my cat's pregnancy back in 85/86 traumatized me FOR A REASON; i am looking back on the stays at the state hospital during 86 to 88 with new insight. I understand that there was a reason for me to be there. The first … Continue reading Wondering
Cat complex
Posting from my cell phone because this is a sudden, intimate moment. Have been posting momentously, privately. Now, it's about the cats. Because now i see why i was so obsessed over my cat Daisy, getting pregnant when i sent her here from Mass. after relationship with roommate, J. in apartment there broke up in … Continue reading Cat complex
Change to “Hello”
Well, since I wrote that a week ago I have been through an abysmal time. Hangover from the holidays + life catching up with me from long ago. Its a good thing. Solving some huge problems; and my mind is telling me that things will be easier from now on. My son in my mind … Continue reading Change to “Hello”
