I just uncovered the biggest lie of my whole life and it was put there by Satan. Oh my! I made a suicide attempt when I had just turned 22. I was such a child; I didnt know how to do it. So, i tried to get pills. I went to my mother's doctor and … Continue reading The Biggest Lie
Author: abbyhillonline
studying to be a Catholic Christian
mother, ex-wife, sister, friend
Wondering
As i sift through my past in light of this new information--that my cat's pregnancy back in 85/86 traumatized me FOR A REASON; i am looking back on the stays at the state hospital during 86 to 88 with new insight. I understand that there was a reason for me to be there. The first … Continue reading Wondering
Cat complex
Posting from my cell phone because this is a sudden, intimate moment. Have been posting momentously, privately. Now, it's about the cats. Because now i see why i was so obsessed over my cat Daisy, getting pregnant when i sent her here from Mass. after relationship with roommate, J. in apartment there broke up in … Continue reading Cat complex
Change to "Hello"
Well, since I wrote that a week ago I have been through an abysmal time. Hangover from the holidays + life catching up with me from long ago. Its a good thing. Solving some huge problems; and my mind is telling me that things will be easier from now on. My son in my mind … Continue reading Change to "Hello"
Hello
Hello! I am returning after a long absence. I have been progressing in my psychotherapy and religion toward a much better place. You will find that my style has greatly changed and will continue to evolve with a total reworking of my mental structures from abysmally complicated (before) to dynamic and complex (now). My psych … Continue reading Hello
Word to the wise; MIRACLE; 2. Cheating
second post following 4 months tapering off Clozaril, a psych med; and adding Elavil, a tricyclic anti-depressant. In both high school and college I was unfortunately and somewhat unfairly, mistakenly, and erroneously accused of cheating on a boyfriend. And I didn't realize any part of that until years later; even now. In high school, I … Continue reading Word to the wise; MIRACLE; 2. Cheating
The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Tapering off Clozaril; resuming a tricyclic anti-depressant after 25 years After 4 months, my whole life is falling back into place. A MIRACLE is happening. No, I was not suicidal at Harvard in Fall 1982 when my roommates complained to the senior tutor and he marched me over to community mental health services. When I … Continue reading The real truth; word to the wise; 1
