Almost to the end

This is the denouemont. They are saying he tripped and fell. "We arent going to use the word suicide." I am trembling as i write. Because ive seen this before. Its the one sure bet they ever saw in their life, it involves downing me and its sheer bull. It goes back to when my … Continue reading Almost to the end →

More of the Half-Lives of a Suicide

I don't know why he did it. Surely he could have picked up the phone and called somebody. I am going back in my mind to age 17 when I first desperately needed help, after my father tried to touch me. I was thinking about the money, why I have never had enough money, and … Continue reading More of the Half-Lives of a Suicide →

Suicide moving into half lives

The gone missig and the shock of the finding of rhe body are passed. The ground zero of the pain of the loss is moving off. For about three days everyrhing held a reference to my brorhers death. I cried again today. But its over. As i prayed the rosary today i was reminded of … Continue reading Suicide moving into half lives →

Suicide live online day 2

Actually we dont know exactly when it happened. I am speaking of my going public here about it. He we t mussi g over 2 weeks ago and his body was found in daylight hours there the day before Thanksgiving. Its been a slow burn. Thus morning at the Starbucks drivethrough the person ahesd of … Continue reading Suicide live online day 2 →

Not safe

My brother has committed suicide. He flung hinself off a cliff in an exotic location. I am too sad to be angry. He leaves behind his 18 year old son. And all the rest if us. It is a watershed event. We heard the tragic news Thanksgiving morning. He had been missibg for a week. … Continue reading Not safe →

Reaction

I waited for a time, a time, and a time and a half for news regarding my "pro-life mailing" of "California, a Pro-Life Novel." (See sticky post at the top of this blog.) I googled the username abbyhillonline at some point and iwas directed to an old post, its been a while and i am … Continue reading Reaction →

Unfair

My mother cultivates me to make me do good works if benefit ti others and takes the benefut of them to prosper my brother and sustervl and anyone other tajers. Removing the ownershio from me and guving me oain and punishnent because i am disabled. This has been goung on since u was a child. … Continue reading Unfair →