Well, since I wrote that a week ago I have been through an abysmal time. Hangover from the holidays + life catching up with me from long ago. Its a good thing. Solving some huge problems; and my mind is telling me that things will be easier from now on. My son in my mind … Continue reading Change to “Hello”
Category: God’s goodness
Hello
Hello! I am returning after a long absence. I have been progressing in my psychotherapy and religion toward a much better place. You will find that my style has greatly changed and will continue to evolve with a total reworking of my mental structures from abysmally complicated (before) to dynamic and complex (now). My psych … Continue reading Hello
The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Tapering off Clozaril; resuming a tricyclic anti-depressant after 25 years After 4 months, my whole life is falling back into place. A MIRACLE is happening. No, I was not suicidal at Harvard in Fall 1982 when my roommates complained to the senior tutor and he marched me over to community mental health services. When I … Continue reading The real truth; word to the wise; 1
Fatal Accident
My brother suffered a fatal accident. He made a suicide attempt, jumping off a cliff in his beloved Hawaii. I am reassured by the Lord that in the 10 seconds or so that he had to think about it, he changed his mind; but there was nothing he could do to stop the downward fall. … Continue reading Fatal Accident
Tidal wave
I'm putting up all these posts and people are visiting but noone is liking! And my son isnt responding to my texts and my ex isnt answering my emails and neither is my Dad! It's like a tidal wave, everything has gone blind as if my brother in Heaven has sent a tidal wave from … Continue reading Tidal wave
Baby X
An abortion. I am dovetailing my psych history with my pregnancy history. I am seeing that the very things most untoward and despicable in my life were in fact necessary because they were a part of a pregnancy that SHOULD HAVE GONE FORWARD. At the time I was convinced that the abortion was legitimate because … Continue reading Baby X
“Choose Death”
I finally figured out the problem with the "Pro-Choice" misnomer. I didnt understand the wisdom of the anti-abortionist's "Choose Life" handle. The "Choice" is either Life or Death. To have an abortion is not just to exercise Choice; it doesn't stop there; it is ugly. To have an abortion is to Choose Death for your … Continue reading “Choose Death”
Tears of Joy
After 40 years, my parents have fessed up about an unfortunate sexual incident that has been poisoning us in secrecy all these years. It didnt hit me at first. It went down in my psychotherapist's office on Wednesday; today is Saturday. We've been going through the motions since then; waiting for the other shoe to … Continue reading Tears of Joy
It all happened so fast
A paradigm shift. From Boston/Manhattan to Buffalo; 1982 to 1993. Englamerica to Canenglamerica. In 1978 I applied to Harvard, Princeton, Yale, Brown, Colgate, and a few other top Colleges. Yale had the sense to wait list me, after two questionable interviews. I got in everwhere else, on the strength of a phenomenal personal essay about … Continue reading It all happened so fast
Polemic
The National Review article in Yahoo News which I get on my cell phone brought me to a screeching halt. Entitled "The Impeachment Farce Limps Along to Its Anticlmax," it excoriates Democrats for their DISRESPECTFUL attacks on Donald Trump. The attack is rich with vitriol against wrong-minded opponents of the Predident and concludes with this … Continue reading Polemic
