I've been picking up puzzle pieces, connecting the dots, dotting the i's and crossing the t's, resolving the disconnects; for a COMEBACK. This has been DECADES in the making. The disconnect I picked up on today that has everything falling into place is the urology appointment in Florida that got canceled because of a hurricane. … Continue reading Needing the help
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My Life
Right now my future daughter-in-law (that's how I see it) is a big part of my life. Unfortunately every time I turn around I step on her toes or she steps on mine and this has been going on for the longest time. She is Brazilian and I see that as significant and important about … Continue reading My Life
About Harvard
Finally its past tense. I am held there now for hurting men. Because of the malpractice early in MY psych care that started on my leave of absence half way through my senior year, this never got addressed as it should have been. There was a very real reason for this abuse of men and … Continue reading About Harvard
Betrayal
I finally found out that my sister seduced my husband. I always knew she dissed me to him. So, she never knew it but for that reason I dissed her to her old boyfriend's sister--the one who "ate condiments for food"--when we were out on the patio smoking that Thanksgiving that his family came here … Continue reading Betrayal
Turning over a new leaf
That about says it. I have; I am. I realized that I had a terrible, even insulting habit of negativity in my everyday speech. I rapidly was able to let go of this, once I saw it. with the Lords help. Since then, I have been making all kinds of positive strides. So, as I … Continue reading Turning over a new leaf
Finale, 2
At the house in Summit, New Jersey, my little sister--8 years younger--told me she had a dream that she was drowning in mud. I took rhis very seriously as I was deeply engaged in ineffectually pursuing imaginary psychoanalysis based on the book, "August" that my psychotherapist had given me to read. It was about a … Continue reading Finale, 2
Cambridge, Mass. 1984
I did something horrible. Even as I come here to write, I am being made aware that at that time my sexuality issues werent understood as such and it was terrifying to be me. I picked up wirh Barry, a young poet from Lancaster, PA, wh had come to Harvard Square seeking Literature after a … Continue reading Cambridge, Mass. 1984
The truth is always better than a lie
My father thinks that I want to have sex with him. He thinks that all women secretly desire to have a sex with him. Maybe all men are like that. I couldnt know, because of my injured clit from being kneed in the crotch as a child. In college I hit my boyfriend on the … Continue reading The truth is always better than a lie
Connecting the Dots; updated
Well, its been a long time; but the water is finally well over the dam. Since Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County. PA, from a situation in 1988; where they didnt know me and I was held on a bunch of lies that I didnt even know. Then, I spent 2 years here in semi-recovery; … Continue reading Connecting the Dots; updated
Phone Preference
I figured out a lot of things by realizing that I was a "hi-tech brat." I had a college roommate who was a self-proclaimed "faculty brat;" "similar to a military brat." The issue of "phone preference" came up with her. My father was a hi-tech professional and was also an AT&T employee and my mother's … Continue reading Phone Preference