He jumped off a cliff in Hawaii around this time last year. He came to me today in my heart after a difficult appointment with my psychiatrist. I have attempted suicide 5 times since I was 17 (I am 58 now); the last time was really serious. But the Lord never took me. I am … Continue reading My brother who committed suicide
Tag: Baptism
not nice
The catholic church isnt nice. Not now, especially not in Pennsylvania. i have a dispute with my RCIA counselor. There was some innocuous impropriety. She had the humility to ask me to pray for her. But she cleverly let it be suggested that "no one would believe [me]" if I said anything about the minor … Continue reading not nice
Asshole
I have learned NEVER to use that word about any man. But there is an exception to every rule. I am embracing words from a book called "The Wounded Heart: Hope for Adult Victims of Childhood Sexual Abuse." Dan Allender says in this book that it IS good to confront your abuser, if possible, when … Continue reading Asshole
Writing my way out of my blog
With my baptism on Satuday comes a restoration of old faith and, unbelievably, faith enough to declare my old vocation, which is to write.I never really stopped but for a while i couldnt even write a check. Because of the medication I was taking, Tegretol, the sound and feel of the pen touching the paper … Continue reading Writing my way out of my blog
fight
my mother and father are in their early eighties. my brother's suicide has been too much for them. I was baptised into the Catholic Church yesterday. It was a beautiful private ceremony. Of course they were not invited. They are atheists. Unfortunately, my father closely guards the Catholic baptism of his youth. It is one … Continue reading fight
cats
I have an issue with cats which took me to places that aren't safe to write about. I was stymied in self-publishing because things that were second nature to me couldn't be put in print. I kept pushing these issues and they kept saying no. This has taken me to a place of healing and … Continue reading cats
Live at catholic.com
I am in for prayers and support at catholic.com on this very special night. when the very best is coupling with the very worst in my life as various threads come together to create a major life moment. I will soon be baptised and confirmed. I will be able to take the Eucharist and I … Continue reading Live at catholic.com
Baptism
Im going to be baptized! Allelujah! Sister M. says dont worry about all that praying i stopped doing, the Lord will show you how He wants you to pray: fellowship, works, and better hygiene definitely ARE good uses of that time. She said pick a date for your Baptism. Its finally real. So i put … Continue reading Baptism
Absent
Its Thursday, ive been awzy since Sunday. Since that time, an embarrassment if RICHES. 1) i got medicaid, so i can get dental work and the probkem if the civerage gao fir nedicatiob us solved. 2) my mother plunked down the 2200$$ for a bankrupcty lawyer--i can handle the rest; God bless her eternally for … Continue reading Absent
Finding my Feet with God
A disaster on the smoking porch just now reminded me to find my feet with God before proceeding with this day, this week, this life. He was absent from my thoughts when my son was born and that was a big part of the problem that i had. Even though i named him self concmsciously … Continue reading Finding my Feet with God
