Well, since I wrote that a week ago I have been through an abysmal time. Hangover from the holidays + life catching up with me from long ago. Its a good thing. Solving some huge problems; and my mind is telling me that things will be easier from now on. My son in my mind … Continue reading Change to "Hello"
Hello! I am returning after a long absence. I have been progressing in my psychotherapy and religion toward a much better place. You will find that my style has greatly changed and will continue to evolve with a total reworking of my mental structures from abysmally complicated (before) to dynamic and complex (now). My psych … Continue reading Hello
With my baptism on Satuday comes a restoration of old faith and, unbelievably, faith enough to declare my old vocation, which is to write.I never really stopped but for a while i couldnt even write a check. Because of the medication I was taking, Tegretol, the sound and feel of the pen touching the paper … Continue reading Writing my way out of my blog
I suffered a quiet suicide on Wednesday. I had been penned in since my "birthday dinner" on Sunday evening at a nice restaurant nearby which took SEVERAL nasty turns. My son was there which made it beautiful. But the g-rents lost it on rhe way hone after several inappropriate incidents. They say beggars cant be … Continue reading Praying to St Joseph
My father was leaning over this way trying to grab ahold of me to hold against my mother and i refused him. Thats how it played out all these years. Im back at tbe dump looking to pick out a different life. I still remember that day in small town New Jersey south of Manhattan. … Continue reading Gotcha
Retroactive emancipation is perfect because it happens by law at 16. That's when i ran away from home. They left me at the house in NJ alone when they went on a two week hiking trip in New England. My brother took the station wagon and went to his girlfriend's house and i hadnt gotten … Continue reading Retroactive Emancipation
This blog is a good place to come to for grounding. When the shit is getting too thick and i cant see in front of me, I make time to come here and the ground opens up in front of me. What a day. It was a struggle to get out of bed, but once … Continue reading Grounding