So, It is Mother's Day 2021 and for many reasons I stayed in bed. My mother passed away last year. There is family strife and my son and girlfriend were here but I didn't feel well. We all parted amicably at about 4 p.m. and all was well. Now, I have this post to write … Continue reading About Men; 2: On Fire
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At The State Hospital
I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends. Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and … Continue reading At The State Hospital
Cats; Satan; high-tech
I have let go of the Satanically inspired moment involving my two cats in my mother's kitchen back in the summer of 1997. I had been at the State Hospital. My mother and father had recently moved here (SE PA) from New Jersey. I had run away from the special program at the hospital for … Continue reading Cats; Satan; high-tech
Prophets
It's about abortion. "I am the king of the world." "My name is David SON, S-U-N of GOD." I was constantly going to writing a novel called "Voices," I just liked the sound of that title. "My name is power." Uh hmm. (This is a patient from the state hospital speaking through me over the … Continue reading Prophets
Break Point: Game, Set, Match; updated
My aging mother other and father were glued to tennis on the telly recently: Wimbledon, I presume. Well my own situation is brewing to a break point. As i waited for weeks for new the medication, Nuplazid to be prescribed, approved, ordered, and dispensed from a specialty pharmacy, my entire life was in … Continue reading Break Point: Game, Set, Match; updated
Watershed
My marriage hangs in the balance. My father is convicted of his sin of sexually mistreating me when I was 17. He has abused his power to keep me under his thumb all my life, despite my being married and having a child who needed me. My husband and son disbelieve me. We are divorced. … Continue reading Watershed
Patience
I am waiting on sonething very important. In the meantime the Lord gave me something wonderful to do. (Oh and yes, i hereby reclaim that word "wonderful" to be redeemed from what the Governor of New York made of it back in tbe 2000s. (Was it the Governor who went to jail on vice charges?) … Continue reading Patience
Deepening Faith
Talked to my pstchiatrist about ny blessing sexual issues today. He is physically handicapped also so it will be interesting to see how this plays out, i am hoping for a blessing, a warm understanding. Anything else would be si cruel. I also told him of my deepening faith and he approached this withourmr a … Continue reading Deepening Faith
Partial Hospital Program
The sleeping continued after my last post and the following Sunday--a eeek and a day ago--i went to the ER in Reading again. I was feeling desperate about the situation with staying here in my parents home. All that has changed. The social worker at the ER turned me down for a bed but offered … Continue reading Partial Hospital Program
Spring fever
Aching for ny husband. What else is there to say? Its been 5 years. Its been 18 years. How nany places and times that we left of off? Its springtine, the sun was warm today and we sat dotted along the picnic benches soaking in rhe rays. Love took flight at 600 smoke break, someone … Continue reading Spring fever
