A Letter to Society

About where I've been and where I'm going. Picking up a huge puzzle piece this evening. About a summer evening in Reading, PA long, long ago. Two men on motorcycles; the Pagoda. Two sensual movies at the local theatre. A hot dark night. I lost my heart to a man there; never to return. So, … Continue reading A Letter to Society

Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm

This post was just updated: First of all, its about the rape at the beach when i was 13. When i was living here in my 20s, they (my parents) (world's worst friends to children) said to me, obliquely, "It happened when you were 13." A few years later--i was still living here-- i mentioned … Continue reading Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm

36 years of psychoanalysis coming to a Close

NOT MINE. I have been the proxy for my mother's best friends psychotherapy with my first psychiatrist, a CHILD PSYCHIATRIST who saw adults for strictly medication management. She saw him for 3 decades before leaving New Jersey for a retirement community in the Boston area, where her children are. I saw the psychiatrist for about … Continue reading 36 years of psychoanalysis coming to a Close

Accountable for sexual abuse of self

Well the shit gets deep when you become accountable on account of what SOMEBODY ELSE does TO YOU. Your father expresses a sexual interest in you-- you are 17--that is your problem, regardless of the fact that it is not on account of anything you have done. With your mother it is like RAPE in … Continue reading Accountable for sexual abuse of self